FIRE

copywrite 2011 amanda carter

I can still remember looking into your eyes and knowing fear

The white heat from the flames of your fury brought me back in time

To a place I had run from a long time ago, a place that I had escaped

Suddenly I was back, caught on a rollercoaster that I had to survive

Fiery red passion churning inside of me, pleasure turned to grief

Open hands quickly became clenched fists clawing at my very soul

My mind was strong, but my body too weak to stop you

You wanted me to suffer…you wanted me to crawl

My breaths come slow, steady, I am burning, I am burning inside

I take myself to a different place, a place where I am loved

A promise, a ring, an ounce of faith, a warm embrace, trust

I awake to the same nightmare, scorpions, I want to run

The chain bound around me so tight I suffocated under your command

Quietly in the night air I fled without a word, without a sound

Animal like, not myself, not trusting, living on instinct alone

I got far from the grips of your reign, your lock and key, your rusted crown

Love was your sword but you had dropped your heavy armor

Begging, pleading, your voice was desperate, needy, tragic

Survival, I became cold, unfeeling, everything I learned from you

No longer falling for your false promises I never looked back.

Learning to love, to trust, to make mistakes without fear

My fiery red passion, my love will never be given without thought

My mind focused, head over heart, so I cannot fall

I am alive. My hands are steady. My body is strong.

~To truly love you have to let go of fear and step into the unknown.~
Amanda Lynne Carter